Learn to Forgive&Forget; 
Learn to LOVE again, after you’ve been hurt;
Because every Broken Heart will Learn to Heal&Love once again;
Only if the Owner learns to ACCEPT the fact that it WILL be BROKEN AGAIN. 

~thank you Shakespeare , for you have, once again, opened my mind, and helped me realize REALITY. That you CANNOT move on, if you still LIVE the PAST, and REFUSE the present, and keep Wishing&Imagining what Could’ve BEEN, what Should’ve BEEN, but it Never WAS. 

fourthperiodmoments. 

Happy Happy Happy birthday Lexiee! i wishh you all the best, i hope you had fun tonight, im sorry i couldnt go to you’re house, i had to do something.. yeaa, but i hope you had a wonderful day!

so tomorrow would’ve been our 17th month.. or our year and five months.. gahd, if only we lasted longer.. i wanted to at least get to 2 years with you. babe, i know i’ve hurt you, a LOT, and im really sorry for that, i really am.. i know you’re thinking, ” WTF! you broke up with me…” and at some point i ended up acting like khuyen, or maybe i was her… im sorry for saying sorry, .. i promised i wouldnt say it, but i had to… you know, i feel like her now, because i’m talking about you on my blog and stuff, how much i miss you even tho its been 26 hours since i broke up with you… but, i really do miss you.. i think, no, i SHOULD have said yes when you asked me again, if i still wanted an “us” .. i should have.. but i didnt.. i was soo focused in what my parents want , that i forced myself into saying no to you.. it hurts me so much, that i had to say that to you… and i just wanted to let you know that you’re not the only one hurting from this, i am too.. i cried myself to sleep and found myself crying in the morning, during school, and after school too.. im not saying this because i want your pity, im just saying this because i really want to tell you what i feel.. in our relationship, i know that i wasnt very open to you about what was going on through my mind or what im feeling about a situation, or what im doing most of the time, but i learned to tell you most of those things.. in time.. 

i hope that one day, i can have the courage to go up to you and tell you what i feel, and what i want.. since i rarely told you those things. i know its too late to do those things, but i still want to do them.. i miss you, a lot.. i know this for sure because i found myself staring at a picture of us, and saying to myself ,” why? why did i do that? why did i let him go? why do i have to hurt him?” and flashbacks came to me.. those times when you carried me and massaged my legs because they were sore from practice/; i miss those, i miss seeing your beautiful smile, your gorgeous eyes, i miss those times when you’d correct my “your” and “you’re”s.. i miss ‘US’. i really do]; tho’ i hope that one day you’ll understand what i had to go through, what i had to do for us … just so that i can still continue seeing you.. i hope one day you’ll understand, i really do.. i hope you’ll see the fact that i didnt want to call it off, but i HAD to.. they said its for the best.. and what we want is the best for BOTH of us, right?

im sorry/; everyday, i would text you a good morning and a ‘good night, honey. sweetest dreams, i love you so much..” but i never sent them, because i know you’ll ignore them, or that you’ll hate me even more… just know that i tried my best for us, i really did, but i know that you always thought i wasnt trying, that it was just you.. and im sorry if i made it seem like that.. 

i still love you, no matter what, i still love you.. never forget that, please? 

oh, its may 26th, happy 17th babe, if we were still together.. i love you.. 

hey babe, 
   

    just wanted to let you know that i’m missing you like crazy, /; 
    so today is Wednesday[; almost Thursday baby, i get to see you![; i like the fact that out of nowhere, we’d call each other by our real names, without the “babe/baby”. At first, i was like shocked about it, and it felt a little different, then i got used to it. so babe, i wish you were here with me, i really do.. we’ll just have to wait ‘til tomorrow then.. btw, my back hurts];

oh and i really do thing that the posts your ex makes about us are really really interesting.. i dont know why i think they are, but they are. anyways, i hope that one day you guys can be friends and start talking.. i mean, i know she must’ve taken you for granted because you wouldnt be like this if she hadnt, but i really hope that she’ll change and that you guys can start talking as friends, (;

mmkay, well i’ll be waiting babe, i love you soo much<333 ;*

~to infinity && beyond(;